Yearning For The Badboy Mafia’s Love

CALISTA RAYMONDS

The sun rays shining on my face made me to wake up, I looked over at the window and realize it’s open.

That explains why I almost got blinded. I sigh and stood up, since I’m awake already, I guess I have to open the curtain to let air in…

I yawned and stood up from the bed then went to draw the curtain. I walk to the bathroom and brush my teeth but have to stop to look at myself in the mirror.

Damnit. I’m looking so pale and it’s very obvious that I had just cried myself to sleep.

I sigh and walk back inside my room, I applied some powder on my face to cover up the eye bag I already had.

Satisfied that I was able to cover it up, I walk out of the room and head downstairs for breakfast.

I’m just trying to forget about everything that happened yesterday. I have to accept the fact that Chase doesn’t love me or care about how I feel.

But I’m relieved that I was able to pour out my heart to him. At least I feel at ease knowing he knows I’m in love with him

I just have to accept the fact that he doesn’t feel the same way I do. Well, it’s okay to be rejected.

I’m going to heal up with time and I’ll definitely be okay.

I walked to the dining room and pull out a chair then sat down. Well, I’m glad I didn’t get to see Chase this morning.

That’s a good way to start my morning. If there’s a way I could avoid in completely, I’d want to vanish out of his sight.

I dished out my food and started eating , just then , I saw Tyrell walk into the dining room and arch his brows when he saw me.

“Have you see Chase this morning?” He asked me and I look at him.

“No” I muttered. Normally, I could’ve go ahead to ask him If anything is wrong but right now, I don’t even care to do.

“Then that means he didn’t come back last night.” He muttered and I look up at him.

“Chase went out last night and didn’t come back?” I asked him and he nods at me.

“He told me he just want to have a coupe of drink but I wonder why he didn’t come back. Chase handle sleeps out without telling me” Tyrell said.

I dropped the spoon I was eating with and looked down. What if he have attacked and he’s hurt?.

Maybe I shouldn’t have said so much yesterday. If anything happens to him, I’ll have to blame myself all long.

He left the house because of me and obviously he didn’t come back because of me.

“Did you both had a fight?” Tyrell asked me and I look up at him immediately.

“We… No! Ofcourse not” I stammered. He smile and take a step away from me.

“I’ll go check his penthouse” he told me and I give him a forced smoke before he walk away.

I sigh and look down on the tea and cake I’m eating, The hunger in me already vanishes and I couldn’t eat any more.

Even if I didn’t want to worry whether he’s fine or not, Now, I have to because if anything happens to him it’ll be hard for me to turn a blind eyes on it cause I’ll believe it’s my fault.

“Argh… Maybe I talked more than I should have last night.” I muttered to myself and stood up.

I need to attend lessons. I climbed upstair and walk to my room shutting the door behind.

Chase didn’t even love me a bit cause if he does, he’d come up to me and even if I refuse to talk to him, he’ll be nice to me and get me to talk to him.

Now I understand what Martin feels when I turn him down over and over again.

Now, I got rejected too and I gave no hope that fate will be nice to both of us.

I have to accept the fact that Chase is cold hearted even not to fall in love.

What was I even thinking?

Madison was said to be his first love and after her death, he had vowed to make her his last love too..

How do I think a mere slave like me could make him go back to his words?

I was only joking with feelings. I was the one hurting and Chase cares less. Ofcourse he should cause he doesn’t believe in love any more.

I understand how hard it might be for him to not be able to love someone because he’s scared of not being able to control her again and she’ll die because of him again.

I sigh and bring out out my laptop and opened it, I was about to join the online class when I heard a noise outside my door.

Closing back the laptop, I stood up and went to open the door but when I look outside, I couldn’t find anyone there.

But I’m sure I heard someone’s voice, I close back the door of my room slowly and step out. I first look at Chase’s door and it was locked which tells he’s not yet back!

“Hello..?” I said and look away but no one answered and it’s becoming creepy.

I stopped at the stair and look downed, there was no sight of anyone.

Maybe it was me overthinking to the extent that I start hearing voices in my head too. Gosh, I hate this.

I turned to walk away but froze at my spot when I saw a figure standing in front of me and wearing a mask.

I could only see the eyes and it’s a man. I hold my mouth so I don’t scream as I shiver. Is this some sort of joke or something?

Staring at this person who keeps staring back at me too without a word, I took a step back and with each step I take backwards, he take a step forward.

“Who are you!” I yelled at him in tears then I heard a laughter as the person remove his mask.

“Did I scare you?” Rowan smiled at me and I sigh and punch him playfully.

“You almost gave me a heart attack, why will you act that creepy.”

“Forgive me. Is my brother in? I call him earlier and he won’t answer his phone or reply his text. I just wanted to tell him the Mafia ball party was pushed and to come in two weeks and two days time” he said.

I sigh and look away. “He didn’t come back last night ”

“You both had a fight?” He whispered.

“We’re not a couple to have a fight and start ignoring each other. Anyways, I don’t care if he comes back or not” I said to him and he smirked.

“You should. Are you busy? Let’s go out if your free”This is from NôvelDrama.Org.

“Well, I have class this morning and your brother will be mad seeing me with you.”

“Maybe you should skip class for me. About my brother, didn’t you just say you don’t care? I always don’t care. C’mon, go change your cloth. I’m downstairs”. He said and without waiting for my respond he climbs downstairs.

I look back at him and then sigh before walking to my room. He’s right, I shouldn’t care or worry if he wants me to go out or not.

He doesn’t want me and that doesn’t mean no one wants me. It’s my life and I shouldn’t let him control he comes and goes in my life.

I walk to my closet and bring out a cloth , then walk to the bathroom to take my bath.